"These sentences are pushing back against me and shaping me into a form I didn’t have and couldn’t imagine at the start of writing today. The spaciousness of the margin creates a gutter for the things I cannot say yet."
Emily, this is the most beautiful description of writing as stimming--of writing as being how some of us must find and recall our real selves--that I have read yet.
Ah, yes -- no wonder it's not about catharsis for me. It's a *stim.* It's weird but I haven't really thought of it that way, even though it seems so obvious now that you point it out, lol? And then that makes me wonder about the relationship between (or flow of) stimulation, de-stimulation, under-stimulation in the creative process, grieving process, etc. (Which then also reminds me of an insightful note Tara McMullin had re: understimulation in response to another post: https://substack.com/@taramcmullin/note/c-40277805)
Running on vibes!!!!! perfect description of how I work personally lol. Love how you describe adhd from the inside here, I rly relate. sensation/emotion/rhythm are so central.
This was magical. I loved reading it. I felt newly embodied, no, newly re-connected no re-attuned to the bodymind, mind descending into body to enliven.
"These sentences are pushing back against me and shaping me into a form I didn’t have and couldn’t imagine at the start of writing today. The spaciousness of the margin creates a gutter for the things I cannot say yet."
Emily, this is the most beautiful description of writing as stimming--of writing as being how some of us must find and recall our real selves--that I have read yet.
Ah, yes -- no wonder it's not about catharsis for me. It's a *stim.* It's weird but I haven't really thought of it that way, even though it seems so obvious now that you point it out, lol? And then that makes me wonder about the relationship between (or flow of) stimulation, de-stimulation, under-stimulation in the creative process, grieving process, etc. (Which then also reminds me of an insightful note Tara McMullin had re: understimulation in response to another post: https://substack.com/@taramcmullin/note/c-40277805)
Yes! Yes yes.
Also, I have probably watched this short video 50 times since last fall/winter: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TEaMz7cY2iE
LOVE this ("material resistance" -- feedback!), thank you so much for sharing
Running on vibes!!!!! perfect description of how I work personally lol. Love how you describe adhd from the inside here, I rly relate. sensation/emotion/rhythm are so central.
This was magical. I loved reading it. I felt newly embodied, no, newly re-connected no re-attuned to the bodymind, mind descending into body to enliven.